It sounds like you might be asexual and sex-repulsed, and depending on how you feel about your role in society and your sex characteristics, you might be agender or neutrois (like me!) Basically, being asexual means you do not experience sexual attraction to anyone of any gender. This can be due to trauma or chronic health problems, but it's also often just the way some people are, like other sexual orientations like being gay, straight, or bisexual. There is also grey-ace which is an umbrella term for many other identities on the asexual spectrum. Grey-ace means you seldom feel sexual attraction or only feel it in certian situations. It's important to note that sexual attraction is different from romantic attraction, though for most people they're experienced simultaneously. But it's possible to be asexual and alloromantic (experiencing romantic attraction--things like wanting to be in a relationship with someone, hold their hand, be around them a lot, maybe kiss them, etc. but romantic attraction doesn't include feeling aroused at the sight or thought of a certian person or gender, or having sexual fantasies with someone) or vice versa, and it's also possible to be asexual and aromantic (that's me!) People can even have different orientations depending on if you're talking about their sexual or romantic attraction. Gender, also, is more complicated than most people realize. Most people think it's a binary of male and female, but it's actually a lot more complex. Not only is the idea that everyone has unambiguously male or female genitilia and other sex characteristics false (as with the surprisingly common occurence of intersex individuals), but it's also historically and scientifically shown that the concept of gender in and of itself is a socially biased human construct and many people exist who identify as a different gender to the one assigned to them at birth. These people are called transgender and are diverse in experience and identity. Someone with a penis could identify as a girl and vice versa, but also there is a plethora of genders that fall outside or between the binary genders of male and female. For example, I identify as neutrois, or neutral-gendered. Figuring out if you're trans (and if so, how you identify and how that impacts your life) is a confusing process but it's worth it in my opinion. No two trans people are alike and since not many people know much about being trans, it's hard to know what to do. I would suggest that you focus on how you feel. Ask yourself: am I absolutely 100% as comfortable as I can possibly be when society genders me as a woman, using she/her pronouns, using terms like "ma'am" and "lady" when referring to me? Am I absolutely 100% as comfortable as I can possibly be with my body and all of its gendered parts (breasts, genitilia, face, etc.)? If you answer no or maybe to either of these questions, it's very likley that you're trans, and there is a whole community of other trans folks who will support you while you discover more about yourself and your identity. Labels, should you choose to use them, should be descriptive, not prescriptive. They should describe how you feel, but if you find another one fits you and your identity better, feel free to use that one instead. There are also things you can do to feel better about your body and identity, such as (safely!) binding your breasts or using gender-neutral pronouns like they/them to refer to yourself, and asking that others do the same. If you want to know more about this, I'm always here for you, and I know a whole lot about it through my own journey of discovery. Always feel free to pm me with any questions you have I'll link to some resources below.
Asexual Visibility and Education Network
What is Neutrois? | Neutrois.com
Agender - Gender Wiki - Wikia
Trans & GNC ? Everyday Feminism
LGBTQIA ? Everyday Feminism
What It?s Like to Date When You Can?t Have Sex ? Everyday Feminism
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Asexuality
Pronouns - Gender Wiki - Wikia
Transition - Gender Wiki - Wikia
Neutrois Nonsense | an intimate exploration of identity and finding life wisdom beyond the gender binary
Binding - Gender Wiki - Wikia
Top Surgery - Gender Wiki - Wikia
Top Surgery - Gender Wiki - Wikia