I was feeling depressed yesterday so I had a good think about my situation. The reality is I've got a nice flat, an amazing fiancé and a nice family. So all I need is purpose in life. I'm worried about losing my benefits after being reassessed and I can't live like this. I need my own income. I know lots of people can't work, but I feel like I could be one of the ones who can. So I need to go for it.