First of all why are you friends with a man whom you still want romantically? Bad idea.

Second of all he isn't a nice person and friendship with him is bad news. Him telling you all these things is mean and selfish on his part. He knows you still want him and he enjoys playing with you. Plus I am sorry but he is a liar and a cheat and has issues like drunk driving etc and you want him as a friend. ???

Third of all your relationship wasn't good while it lasted so why do you think it will be good now. It ended long time ago and it was on and off. Were you officially a couple like everyone knew you two are together?i doubt judging by what u said. That's not a good relationship.

Fourth of all its probably normal to feel something when ones ex got engaged. It's ok to grieve and be sad. But it's not useful or helpful though trying to get him back and continue with contact that causes that much pain.

And lastly it is not a good idea to try to change other people. It's a waste of your emery. There are people who don't need to be changed.

Get busy so you don't have time to look him up or talk to him. Get s second job. Be busy. Make your goal to stop obsessing over him. You deserve much better . Continue seeing your therapist

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