I have been sexually attracted to some other women. I have thought I could be bisexual or gay. It's all been a case by case journey, as I have had a non-stop series of boyfriends, then a long-term husband. But, overlapping or in between, there have been a few women that I could have loved, sexually and emotionally. But I never acted on it.

My mother would have same the same as yours did and worse. She'd have probably disowned me and barred me from her life. But if I were really gay, I wouldn't have let her abusive attitude stop me.