I'm so discouraged today. it is just all so futile and meaningless. i'm tired of my job and the people i work with. i feel like part of the furniture today and not a very valued part of the furniture. I try to make other people's lives easier, but i just feel used and burned out. I am either working or sleeping. I just can't put on my happy face and pretend that i'm not hurting so badly on the inside. i long for sleep/peace.