I have a pdoc appointment today at three. I'm really anxious about it because I've (mostly) weaned myself off of seroquel and I know she's going to be angry. I'm not sure how I'm going to be able to convince her I don't need to be on an AP. I just can't subject my body to any more of them! I have bad side effects to all of them. I feel I can handle my psychosis symptoms without.

I'm just not looking forward to this! She doesn't listen to me!

I can't do the AP rollercoaster anymore.

I want to get down to just taking lamictal and gabapentin, and propranolol prn.

I know she's going to be like YOU NEED TO BE ON A STRONG ANTIPSYCHOTIC!

I'm worried she'll drop me.

I don't have the strength today to argue with her.

I guess wish me luck.