I don't know. I wonder myself where it comes from. I know it has a lot to do with what I experienced in life. THe self hate anyways. Depression once was said to me to be pride out of control. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. That it was selfish of me. That all I was doing was thinking of myself. I didn't believe it. I still don't buy that all. I know being depressed we do think of ourselves obviously, but I also think of everyone else's life that I'm affecting by how I'm feeling and behaving. It affects those around us. I don't know how to change the self hate thing, I have yet to figure that out. But I don't think it has anything to do with narcissism.