Oh I didn't think you were questioning me. It's all good! You can feel free to ask whatever.
I can't say I blame you for hating your dad. What reason would you have to make something like that up? Honestly, like we all just LOVE to admit that our family members came on to us! Sheesh! It's TOTALLY embarassing! Who would want to say it if it didn't happen? It's beyond me.
I wish I could say I've been there and found the answers, but I'm kinda still there myself. But the stuff my T said, about the answers coming when it's time and not to stress to much for now, really helped me. I thought that might help you.
I know it's so confusing. If you're anything like me, you probably feel guilty and embarassed that you would even suspect this happened. It's so strange to confront this stuff.
Angela