Yea, no need to feel guilty. When you're already having a hard time! I missed work yesterday could not get out of bed. In a way I feel like I should be in bed still, nurturing myself. But I'm so scared of the depression returning, so I kept moving. Came to work, going through the motions, barely. I have to fight too, and tell myself positive things, depression has stolen enough of my life, can not go there!
Big hugs