now my daughter wants me to watch my 3 and 6 years old grandkids tomorrow evening. This as well as attending a visitation for a friend on Friday pm and funeral on Saturday plus taking my folks grocery shopping on Saturday after the funeral.... when does it stop? When does somebody realize that my heart is breaking, I'm so tired of this fight.... the feelings of worthlessness, the hopelessness..... the alcoholism.... I long to be free... I feel so alone. I want to curl up and cry. I hurt so badly right now.. I feel like the depression is going to win. I'm so lost and alone.