I haven't been to the hospital for about 2 years. I haven't even left home for 3 months.

I mustered up the courage yesterday to seek help for my suicidal thoughts and increased hopelessness.


So I talk to this guy who works in psychiatry and he basically says I need to distract myself. I told him I don't want to live a life of distraction and he says "But that's what you're doing here, distracting yourself" and i'm thinking WTF? I told him I came here to get help and he said "And I will try my best to help." So he blabbed on for about half an hour about his struggles and triumphs. He told me I need to get some friends and go to school. He tells me how bad medication is and that it's good that i'm not taking any. Then he left.

So then the doctor comes in. He's a bit more professional, but didn't seem to care at all. He asks why i'm there. I tell him i'm completely hopeless and suicidal. He goes "mhmmm from the looks of your chart, it looks like you've struggled with this a lot" and I say "Yeah, but not for a while"


The doctor tells me that staying in the hospital is not in my best interest and that there is no point. He did NO risk assessment and never asked if I had a suicide plan or intent. He told me to follow up with a psychiatrist(Without even providing any path on how to get one) and sent me on my way.


I'm at my wits. If this is how i'm going to be treated at the hospital, where do I go for inpatient help? I can't go to psych facilities directly, they are by referral only where I live.


Apparently, they are still using the SAME care plan from 2 years ago and they still have the same bull diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder.

I have to point out that this is the only hospital in our city and there's no point in going to another one since its all the same health authorities.