Yes. I used to feel better and positive after a session, but for a long time now I've been feeling low when I've been to session.
It's a combination of my depression, envy, wanting to know more about her, be closer to her, mean something more than just a client to her.
And since her anouncement about her m-leave it has gotten worse. It's not just after the session. It's the whole week. Between sessions there are many moments I've to think about her and I feel this weight in my stomach, I feel sick, I feel lonely and more not so nice feelings.

She knows a little bit of this, but I haven't (really) told her about my envy and wanting to know more about her, wanting to be closer to her.