Ironically today was a disaster in this regard. I've been feeling a little better and doing a little better last Friday and yesterday at work and today I went in with a good attitude.

A company meeting set me off. The boss announced the results of a little contest we'd been having where everyone brought in a sample of their hobby and then everyone had to guess which hobby belonged to who. I DID NOT participate in this for the same reason I could not participate in the company Christmas party. It caused me pain every time I walked past the table holding all of the hobbies but eventually I forgot about it.

Until today when it came up in the company meeting. Winners announced. Everyone laughing. I was just jealous of everyone and wanted to get back to work. I left the meeting shaking and upset.

And then I spent the rest of the day A MESS. Angry and yelling loudly at every job I worked on and complaining loudly about our customers. I stayed late at my desk cursing loudly about the job I was working on.

****ing horrible day. I thought of this thread all day. Glad you are all here so I can vent.