You are like I was, high tolerance and anything I took or drank had little outward affect (even the pot was opiated). It is a self-destructive lifestyle driven by Mental Illness. Luckily, my tolerance was so high I could function in a successful career during the day. Everything was geared to self-destruction, partying, degrading, unprotected sex with multiple partners, drink and drugs instead of food…

I was 27 when I became clean. I fell in love with a wonderful woman who changed my life, gave me a reason to live. Even though I kept drinking to excess to start with, I was much better. I even voluntarily cut myself off from my previous life.

I quit drinking after a serious motorbike accident (sober). I crushed the vertebrae in my neck and spent weeks in Hospital. Due to that break and the amount of meds I have been on since the accident, I decided to quit drinking before it killed me. I had a lucky let off with the bike, I felt I shouldn't push it.

You have time to come to realisation, to make changes and steer your life in any direction you wish. Perhaps someone will come into your life as they did mine.

Dave.