To be honest, I'm tired of it. I'm not angry but simply tired. If she contacts me or in the future if I reach out to her, things will probably be just fine, at least on my end. As our kids have grown up, I'm finding we have very different parenting skills and family values. She has new friends and so do I.
I know relationships take work. But I'm saddened by her actions and disappointed in myself for either not working harder at maintaining the friendship or not breaking it off cleaner. I have a tendency to leave things unsaid because I avoid conflict.
I truly appreciate everyone's thoughts here. There is a lot for me to continue processing.
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dx: bipolar II
wellbutrin
citalopram
lamotrigine
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