I mean I've had the same thought cross my mind to just leave it all and not deal with this and all the responsibilities that come with life. But then as I actually think about how I would be able to do that...I come to the conclusion that it really doesn't make sense. I too try and avoid most social situations as well and it's to the point that I'm not really invited out anymore.
For me, when I really think about what will happen if I do what I really want to do instead of what I should do, I realize that I have to do what I should because I have nothing to fall back on. I live alone and my mom and sister aren't exactly financially stable, so it's all on me. So I force myself to keep going and making good decisions. The alternative...I don't even want to know what it is..

I'm not sure if that answers your question....?