EJ, I am just now reading your thread. I'm sorry things are so difficult for you now and I really do understand wanting to get out, make changes, yet feeling unable to do so because everything is connected. To do one thing requires something else be done first but that requires something else, and so on.

I hope you find a way that will work for you and you'll be happy. I wish I had advice, but I don't. I offer you my support and well wishes though!