Yes, I'm projecting what I feel and perceive is projected onto me.

I'm not feeling very comfortable and seeing my dog that sick killed me.

He's been with me as my dog since I was 9 years old so it was a huge deal to me. I lost the closest companion when I was alone scared and upset.

It's just like I am always the one who is abandoned by everyone. I don't want to rely on others, I just need a friend someone here anyone here. I really don't need anything else except the company of another who won't be harsh and judge every action I do just listen and comfort me.

Like people who get what I want so easily and destroy it make me so mad. I get so mad, because what's messed up those people people who I thought were nice never are to me or they are manipulative or they want something and won't tell me and drop me before I get a chance to speak. Treated like I'm a tool, for someone else's needs. I didn't feel like a person.

The fact this expectation of a perfect person is to someone of somewhat basic things, but very difficult to many. It's like I'm out of the border of not being able to obtain what most people easily can get and I lose a lot more than I gain from others so I just feel angry every day insecure and I exercise a lot and try to restrict my diet a lot to feel in control of my emotions.