Good luck at your session tomorrow Sister.

On a side note, isn't it funny how on this board we often wish each other luck for an upcoming session? As if luck has anything to do with it, haha

I hope you plan on sharing your dream with him-- do you? I usually open the session with a dream, helps me to "go" somewhere... I'm often lost at the beginning of a session.

I completely understand your fears of abandonment. It goes along with the "Therapist? What therapist?" stage of separation.... and I believe that until you are actively involved in tomorrow's session, that fear will be with you. I have the exact same one... Like even though I know now that my T is back, our working relationship has faded out and it can't be real until I'm actually there with him.

I wish object constancy was something I could buy on sale at the store. It would make things a lot easier.

Have a great session tomorrow. I hope you will let us know how it went.