Hello. Hey, kiddo, I know you hurt. I can feel it in your angry words and defiance. I truly hope you are going to get better and work out what you and your life can be about. Maybe if you stopped thinking about yourself as 'always being too much to handle' ,and started seeing yourself as a 'work in progress ' it might help you get away from focusing on your own negative self image. Nuture what is good and strong in you not what is angry and out of control.

Take care.