I am doing a little better...especially since reading a lot of your posts...they have helped a lot. Yes, I was just a child myself when we met and married. I had his two children and then raised them by myself (their woods, not mins). The kids don't remember their dad ever being there for them...they said that they were with me all the time and I was the one that was there for them when they needed me. My boys are now 30 and 31 and have been a great boost to my feelings as they remember their childhood and the lack of their dad. That saddens me, but there is nothing I can do about it.
Three days ago I was told that he has a girlfriend. I wasn't shocked, but very hurt as this is the last thing on my mind for me. Although I am afraid that when I am ready to find someone, I won't be able to.
I feel like at 50, I am to old for the men out there. Although I am very loyal and communicative. When I give my heart I don't take it likely...I'm afraid this might scare men away...seems like when I look out there at the people I know, infidelity isn't a big deal anymore and open marriage is more accepted...that will never be for me...Like I said I am loyal to a fault and I don't know if men are just as loyal now days...obviously my husband wasn't.
Well..there goes my hands again...numbness prohibits anything further..thanks to all of you who have given me your stories as that has helped tremendously...Thank you all...I know it has to get better.