Cancelled my pdoc appointment, $40 cancellation fee

I almost had a mental breakdown in college. But I managed to bottle it up. I'm seeing the psychiatrist tomorrow. I'm scared. Not of the psychiatrist. Of the things I'm seeing and hearing. I feel like I'm cracking up. Posters winking at me. Moving pictures on the wall. Hearing my great grandad's voice even though he passed away at Christmas a few years ago.