I'm feeling crazy. I feel like being sorry for taking up this space, yet I feel the desperate need to connect to somebody that's feeling as awful as I am right now. In a way, maybe I'm doing it to myself. I could carry on taking the damn pills.
I'm sick to my stomach daily, I don't know what's wrong with me. I haven't had anxiety pills for 2 days, but even before that with taking everything I was still feeling sick. I'm tired of tooth pain, back pain, joint pain. I try not to complain in life, because so many people are suffering worse than I am. In more ways than one.

I don't trust that my boyfriend loves me. I'm anxious all the time about it. Today I think he was annoyed at my surprise visit. I brought him stuff, but he still seemed annoyed. I read lots into things, but he looked at the clock, like "omg, look how much time has gone and I didn't get to do what i wanted"... i realize myself how much reading into a look I've done when I write that, of course it was more than the look, a few comments he made. I'm sick of everything today. I find no joy in food, driving, the awesome weather considering it's usually blowing and snowing this time of year. Nothing. Is this what stopping antidepressants does to someone?
Bf doesn't want me taking it. It seems unfair. He takes stuff that he's not willing to give up. I feel like raging at the world. Is this another effect of coming off pills? Should I just take one again? I'm a mess. Sorry for the taking of space. My ex used to say that is what I was. A waste of space. I'm just so donw right now that is what is going through my head. I don't want to rely on a damn pill to keep me from feeling like this.