I used to smoke but I don't miss it. It didn't do anything for me other than get me high. Weed is always a hot-button subject for people, especially now that it is gaining legal traction. I don't need to "relax" per se, I just need to stop being so gung ho about who I am, what I do, and where I'm going in life. Long short, I need to work on letting life come to me. The BP brain is always working on some scheme, angle, or method that's not practical. The Catch 22 is always mania - people like it because it helps them be productive but for me, it just led me into a brick wall eventually.