yeah... will be 27 this year... just hard to see any kind of future aymore when i used to have such nice dreams... but i think i was just trying to live in a fantasy - thinking things could change one day...
oh well... i could of been good for someone - but dont think i could let myself drag anyone down with me now... think its the end of the road - dont really see how anything could help

even if something does happen to try to give me a chance... this stuff will always haunt me - the things i do to myself are just horrible...

dunno why i know what im doing is no good but just dont care anymore... tried to do good for a long time, but doesnt really seem to be a point to it
only point i see in anything anymore is to try to relieve some of this pain...

im just really broken i guess... broken pretty bad...
pretty embarrassing.... but i guess that doesnt really matter anymore either..