I won't judge because I'm currently going through something really weird that I always discounted as a bad fantasy. But it's very real. I hate it if someone says, yes, 'real for you!' because that's so painful and invalidating. Yet I'm going through it and it's scaring the crap out of me. And I'm on meds. I just went up on an increased dose yesterday. So I'm wondering if my meds ever worked at all because the last time I thought I had been having a bad delusion, it cleared up the day I first posted on pc. That is a huge and suspicious "coincidence".

So now I'm back to wondering if there had ever been anything wrong with my perception at all, and it's very possible all of the delusions I've had were not delusions at all. I'm not in either camp of thought right now. It's all too incredible.

I'm still taking meds because it seems to please the doctor. At this point, the less I care about any of it the better.

So, even if you try meds, they might not change anything. You just never know. You could always stop taking them too, if you do give them a try. That's totally up to you. The thing that makes me bring up meds is the demons telling you to do harm to yourself or others. You have a lot of strength and control with that, but if you slipped just once, you could wind up in prison, and I don't ever want that to happen to you.