Hello TPM just want to offer a little understanding and support. Your post is full of your desire to get help. Please try one of the support hotlines in this forum, I've had some mixed success with crisischat.org (really good if I can get through but sometimes there's a wait) and maybe that can put you on the path for a new doctor or some new therapy or whatever you might need.

Can you call your old psychiatrist for some help or are they not helping you?

In the meantime keep posting here... We can help by listening and understanding to help you hold on until you can find some help in your life.