Big Mama - My husband is also a black and white thinker. A Jeckle and Hyde type person.

You hear that little girls look for men and marry men like their daddies and I believe that I am I agreement with that. I have been questioning the truth behind that statement though. Do little girls marry their daddies or do they turn the men they marry into men like their daddies, because that is what they grew up with and what they know? Does that make sense? Kind of a "which came first" debate.

There was a situation that happened between us that started me on this road. I actually experienced myself split during the process of it. That's been about 3 years ago. I believe that I am gradually becoming stronger and my h has had some trouble adjusting to some of the new me. Other parts of me are still very cautious. I pray in time those parts strengthen also.

I believe he is concerned and he has learned a lot about my upbringing that he did not know. Some he hears and takes in, some he makes no note of. Not sure if that is him feeling his inability to do anything about it, or I could be talking to Mr Hyde at those times.

His explosive anger sends me "away" and I'm working on how to stop that from happening. That's going to take some work and courage. Righteous anger is corrective. I'm learning to say that in my head with conviction.

Thanks for hearing me.

I've been quite about this and it feels really freeing to state it.



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