How do I set one day aside when they are all fun right now. I mean, how can it get better than spending hours everyday at the ranch with my horses? Playing with my filly, riding & practicing my Dressage techniques, training my 4 yr old. Feeding & blanketing 30 horses in the evenings. Digging dirt & moving it into the stalls to fill in the water from the big rains...oh yea, that's supposed to be WORK....but it's fresh air (when you're not being blown away by the 40 mph winds, or being drowned by the rain). The kisses & little nudges along with the tugs on my sleeves by my horses, are the most beautiful feeling I could ever want. How can I get more love than that? Along with the beautiful sunsets that glow red over the Jushua trees & tumbleweeds.

It's the simple things in my life that relieve me from all the crap I live with at home...it's my escape & something I've waited for all my life. I must be in my second childhood since I finally bought the horses I always asked for as a child. They also claim that my eating disorder it also a teenage problem. So as a child again, I am taking advantage of enjoying life until I have to come back to earth & be the responsible student & wage earner...I have a few more months of freedom...believe me, I'm taking advantage of it.