I feel...deflated. Everything has just drained out of me now that I was able to talk with the girl from yesterday. It was nothing, but I was so afraid. Mostly I was afraid she would want to meet with me more. I can't help her in that, not right now. I'm still panicked just thinking about it, even now knowing that's not what she wants. It's the same as earlier this evening, I got a text from my supervisor shortly after she left asking if I was free to talk. And I panicked, so afraid of what she needed. It was just to check in on how something went earlier, as we hadn't talked much since the morning. It's like guilt, but I really haven't done anything wrong. Other than my smoking.