first, thanks for replying i really appreciate it. i'm not very good at talking about my feelings and whats bothering me just because i had to bring others down with my problems...

i've had a bad summer and this weekend i had an especially bad night (an ex boyfriend was in town and he was, for lack of a better word, being a total %#@&#! to me) and my best friend knew that i was upset and not doing well. the past two days though she has completely blown me off - doesn't answer her phone, doesn't call back, the few times we have talked she hasn't once asked me how i was doing or what happened that night... in fact she's actually lied about not feeling well and just going home and going to bed. problem with that is that we live in the same apartment complex and i've gone out to my car only to see her boyfriend's car parked outside!

it's been really upsetting to have the one person closest to me, who i am always there for her to talk to.. completely disregard me and make me feel totally worthless. it's been happening more and more frequently and i'm starting to realize how completely alone i am right now. all of these old feelings of unhappiness and loneliness are coming back full force and i'm just totally lost.