im dreading night time even though i had no nightmares last night. i hate being alone. if i have to use the word hate, its for that. im so optimistic around people and laugh off my problems. but deep down im extremely scared. i cant take it. im a mess deep down.

i talked to my cousin a few states away and he said "youre not crazy. the devils trying to bring you down and infiltrate you".

i think the devil is trying to kill me along with the government. thats why this whole political race is here. for me. some presidential candidates are looking out for me personally and some know i can bring down the government and the devil is on their side to kill me.