how long has it been going on?

if you are feeling you are going to suicide you should get emergency help...
go to the hospital emergency room and tell them ... i know how it feels...
but we dont want that to happen to you...

if you are having suicidal ideation, i think alot of us here have that...
just thinking about it, not really planning anything... well not really wanting to do it but cant shake the thoughts...
talking a little can help... talking with a good therapist can help a great deal...

medication could help especially combined with therapy... im in the process of finding new psychiatrist to get on meds again... im just not gonna get on 9 different pills again - sometimes too much can make things worse too...

i love the benzos for the anxiety - especially if you just use it for short term...
klonopin / valium ... they last longer than the xanax and ativan...

does your psychologist know whats going on?

again please if you feel you might act on those thoughts go to the emergency room now...

if you cant talk to anyone else then please talk here - i try to read the forums everyday...