In college which is almost here, you will meet a lot of women. It is ridiculous to base a person's worth off their looks, but you just did by scaling a woman's attractiveness. In fact, you put her acceptable number before her personality. If you want to be accepted and loved for yourself, you really need to work on this. Would you appreciate a girl scaling your attractive number before deigning to go out with you? You want to meet a decent girl? Forget the preoccupation with looks, yours and theirs. I have known many wonderful, funny, quirky straight women. All are beauties to me whether or not their faces and bodies were considered conventionally attractive. Get involved. Spend as much time as possible away from the computer. The more you socially interact, the more confidence you gain, the better the chance of meeting and wooing a good girl for you.

Try taking a deep breath at work. The best advice I ever received was "it is not about you. People are by nature self-centered and mostly concerned with what is happening to themselves. You really aren't even on their radar." I found this freeing to not worry and be anxious so much. My boss doesn't hate me. A million things might be going on with her. Perhaps if you were able not to stress so much, you would find your job a bit less frustrating.