I got a divorce after 31 years of physical and verbal abuse; it was the scariest thing I ever did. Being alone was my biggest fear and I have been alone for 12 years.

I have a 3 year old granddaughter, and every year the birthday party is at the x's house; It is SUCH a trigger for me; I spend 4-5 hours in such misery. No one has any idea how I am feeling. x has a girlfriend and it just brings back to me how alone I am. I used my life story to win a scholarship at age 60 and am a Sophomore at 69! I still feel 18.

When I go to x's house for any activity (not often); it takes so much out of me, that I don't feel like myself for days. Thank you for any thoughts!