I don't understand why there seems to be such negative connotations when you use the word sick. Sick means to be unwell. You have "others" in your head that control you. You are a prisoner in your own body, unable to live a happy life because of these others. Every day you live with the threat that these others are going to make you do bad things to yourself and others. You are unwell. I am unwell. Most people on this forum are unwell. Half the damn world is full of unwell people. That doesn't make us weak or bad or lousy people. Quite frankly, being unwell makes us f**king warriors.

You focus on everything you can't do, Eden. Why not take the first step in turning that around and try to focus on finding something you CAN do? Focus on finding one thing you can at least try to do to make yourself well.