The thing is that I've accomplished many things, but ended up alone and lonely. So, this has begun to affect my performance at work and I'm loosing interests, because they in themselves mean nothing (For example, I've read many books, and I think I know a lot of stuff, but have never had the chance to talk about them). May be they give you joy momentarily, but without sharing them they loose their values, in my opinion. I know loosing my interests and skills will make my chances even slimmer, but it's difficult to keep the momentum with no real change.