I'm in a protected category, disabled, so the report goes to social services. But there is yet another complication. My T has now told me that he only reported verbal aggression not physical to the doctor filing the report. We have had some issues between us before, but I thought they were worked out. He even suggested I install a chain lock on my door, carry my cell phone at all times, and has seen bruises and pictures of bruises so I have no idea why he then reported verbal aggression only. And since the doctor is new she will of course go with his report which is now so mixed up I don't know what to do about it.

My T actually said he thought nothing would happen, that people would come by to take statements and it would all be okay, when he knows it's not okay, has been for a long time, and now that I have told my partner, things are even worse. He has threatened me again, and may cut me off. That means if no serious report is filed and I don't get funding to relocate, I will have to live in a shelter or in my car. I can't believe my T thinks this is a non-issue. I feel so powerless.

And I have so many appointment and meetings coming up that if someone does come by to take statements they will get my partner's mixed up version because I won't be here. Add that to the mixed up version that my T gave to the new doc, and it's just a mess when I was trying to get out of this situation in a way that worked for everyone. I told the doctor that I thought my partner now needed professional care that was beyond my capacity. So I was also trying to think of his best interests.

I spent the afternoon in bed crying about how sad this all was, but felt that I did have people behind me. Now I feel totally alone in this, that it is so tangled that it will be impossible to manage. And of course telling my partner does mean that he is really angry so my safety is in a worse not better position.

But my T said something like, he's not going to kill you so this is not a crisis, gotta go...

Great. So much for trusting people. I give up.