Hello Justy -- I wish I had said so many of the smart and kind things on this thread. Starting a new job, dealing with your illness, being there for your kids, being in an intimate relationship that may not always be what you want it to be, and now this -- it's an awful lot for one person to deal with.

I hope you will be able to start the job and that it will give you focus and purpose.

There are so many personal issues of religion and morality involved with the decision you must make. I try my best to respect the different points of view.

To me, a key factor in the decision will be whether your health will allow you to carry a baby to term without harming yourself. A second would be the chances of carrying the baby to term. A third issue would be whether you might have to have a lot of bed rest, forcing you to quit the job and neglect the chilldren.

And, of course, pregnancy has a major effect on a relationship. Birth and death are the two most important events of being human, so of course, it affects everything.

I pray that you will find peace as you consider everything that you must take into account. I pray that divine right wisdom and action will be established in all your affairs.

((((((((((((((Justy)))))))))))))))