You're absolutely right, actually. I thought that anger was really the only way I could be in control -- I mean, I kind of felt like a helpless kid. (All things considered, I probably was) And I kind of felt timid and afraid and hated myself for it, so there was that too. And yeah, there's always going to be stuff in life that's just going to infuriate me. It's just a matter of...well, using more constructive methods for my anger, I guess. Coping with it.