Thank you Pita.. as always.. a very caring response.. I did wonder.. you know.. I was always this very scared little girl . In my marriage, I was a scared woman.. though when I went to work.. I was this powerful person that made things happen.. that was respected..
Always such a huge difference between the two..

In my marriage and my childhood.. I learned to cry very silently.. tears running down my face.. so that it wouldn't make things worse.. sometimes the tears would have to be on the inside.. cause.. if they came to the outside.. dire consequences..

So thank you.. I will no longer wonder if screaming would have "saved" me..