It's hard.
I am dissociating lately which I just realised. Not DID but in a dream all the time. I forget things. Don't know what I am doing. Miss things. Make mistakes. The surrounding and details are all blurred. I am so detached from what's around and feelings. Along with psychosis. I see things and hear things
These people only I can see stay by me. This world is not for me. My mom says some people are just incurable. Like me. The people say they welcome me to their world. I want to leave this place. I don't want to fight or struggle anymore.
**TW**
I want to find a building to jump off.
They will be waiting for me outside on the other end. I want to listen to them. I want peace I can never get from this place
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Bipolar, BPD, ED
increasing med right now: a downhill slope
Seroquel 200mg
Epilim 300mg
Olanzapine 5mg
Amisulpride 50mg (just started trying this)
Clonazepam 1.5mg
Ativan 1mg (PRN)
Zopiclone (Imovane) 10mg
In psychosis and struggling worse with ED
I skip med because I would rather be psychotic than living in the real sucky world
Who can understand?...
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