It sounds like you are very anxious and upset and distressed by the current situation. Do you really think it would hurt you to try meds for a month. Even if what you are saying is true, meds still might make things feel more bearable. I have had a lot of success with meds, after much trial and error, but life is much more enjoyable when I can share it with others and share their reality. Have you ever considered that these voices and their problems should have nothing to do with you, they can find someone else to make miserable and try and control. What do you have to gain by following their instructions. It sounds like the voices are just trying to use a different manipulate you. Meds might give you a break from that. Thunk of it as a mini vacation. If the voices are so desperate, they can find someone else.