Thanks Elevated,
It is so easy for me to get lost in the pain... that I forget all the strength that is within me. I do find that communicating here is helpful and reminds me that I'm not alone. But I just get so tired of the constant battle. Fortunately, i'm feeling philosophical today and can say that it's all part of being a human on this planet.
But let's be honest. I don't always understand why my mind works this way. Other people seem to be able to keep going.... keep muscling through the pain.... appreciate their lives the way they are. Why can't I ? Why is every day a new battle, a new struggle without hope of peace let alone joy? What is wrong with me?