well if you want or ever need to let off some steam - can do it here

definitely know how ya feel , we're in it together in a manner of speaking..

i dont talk to anyone about whats going on with me - dont have a therapist or anything...
so occasionally i come here and ramble on about whatever going through my mind...
even though it makes me feel bad to write about it, think maybe it helps a little...
kind of like having atleast some outlet to release some of it...

i would definitely say get a new psych if the one you have been seeing doesnt seem to be helping... maybe a psychiatrist instead ? he can do the medications for you, and you maybe can get a therapist to talk to about things and help you work through things going on?

thing about meds is they can help, but what happened to me is i ended up on a handful .. and im not on any of them now (besides the wellbutrin) but looking back its kinda like a blur, i dont remember much of that time i was on those meds... because they are pretty strong... i was taking 3-4 antipsychotics together.. like 3 antidepressants... mood stabilizer... stuff for sleep and nausea...

its easy to become over medicated... and that can be ok for short term maybe but when it turns into years i think its too long to be on so many meds for my condition... need to do the therapy and try to work through it ... if you have psychosis though antipsychotics probably would be much better help... i dont have psychotic features though...

the seroquel seemed to help with depression though, it just didnt let me be very happy either... the rest of the meds just made me forget what was going on...
seroquel will knock you out cold when you first start it though... took me around a year before my body adjusted - and i could actually take it without going to sleep at all... but i have alot of problems with insomnia (periodically)

stay strong, you have friends here .. keep fighting to get well, you know..
has to be a way we can have atleast a little joy and happiness..