I can relate totally....

I did have an affair.... I dont recommend it at all for soooo many reasons....

How do I cope/deal... sometimes I get into tiffs with hubby about it...sometimes I eat.... sometimes I start to re think the affair thing....sometiems I swear I am going to get divorced and find me someone that can provide me with what I need emotionally.... sometimes I come here... sometimes I vent to friends....sometimes I write poems about it.... but the thing that helps me the most is God....I find prayer helps....