Dear Ex-T,

I miss you. Still. My mind tries to figure out what happened back then and why everything ended up the way it did. Still. Yeah. I'm not kidding. And I know I ended up being "creepy" despite my best intentions of being the "good client"....sigh.

Dear New T,

I'm so glad that I got out of that dysfunctional relationship with "holding T". I know that it wasn't good for me to hang onto her just to feel free of any attachment. I let her treat me poorly just so that I wouldn't have to have a nice T who I could get attached to....not good. I fired her which was a big move on my part. Progress not perfection.

I got mad at you a week ago because you told me my boundaries were not going to work. I was so mad, T. I was ready to leave. I'm glad I didn't because this week I think you understood and you backtracked and helped me to feel some measure of safety again. You said it was okay that I am not ready to make the decision and you supported me. Which is what I needed. Thanks.