I have being having a lot of negative thoughts the last couple of weeks. I have really low confidence and self esteem. I always have doubted myself but I have been thinking about it more lately. I know it's awful to say but it's almost like I hate myself. I sometimes wish I wasn't conceived. I know I can't do anything about that. I'm here now so I have to learn to like myself and accept the person who I am. Almost everything I do in life I regret. I feel so awful lately. I'm trying to work on my body and get to my goal and that's just making me feel worse on top of things because I'm not where I want to be. I feel so down because of all these thoughts. I try to change the way I think but I just go back to not liking myself.