hey, carspassing, you are most welcome to come here. i understand how you don't feel comfortable here, but you have come to a good place. i know what it feels like to struggle and feeling alone. i don't pretend to know why your friend blew you off, but it's possible that she doesn't know what to do or how to help you. some people have that problem in not knowing how or what to do in a situation like this. and i'm very sorry about that. here, we understand and would be happy to listen to you. i'm glad that you found psych central. keep posting.