So -- great news! Amazing news, actually. I spoke with my therapist about many things, including my anger issues and one of the possible roots of that -- that being how I was treated by some authority figures in my childhood (thankfully not every authority figure was awful -- a lot of them really encouraged me -- but the ones who did treat me badly did send out the message that I was pretty much different from the start, ergo, I deserved to be treated like dirt. I think that's why they stood out). Besides telling me that the treatment I got was not my fault and that it's over now (I guess that's what I need to keep reminding myself -- it's 2016 now, not 2000 or any of those other years, and the only times I've been back to that old school are for elections and dog-walkings), she and I also worked together in terms of developing coping skills. Just trying different things and seeing what works -- creative expression was one suggestion, physical activity, etc. So I'm going to have to work on those. Finding stuff that works.

I think so far, I'm making progress. I'm getting my memories back, setting boundaries, and starting to work on my anger. I guess in a way I am making more progress than I've given myself credit for. It's going to be a hard road, but I'll get there. I think I can actually kind of sort of see a future.